Manifesto's

Yesterday we had the Labour manifesto launch, with Gordon Brown introduced by a girl called Ellie who is a student, studying in Paris - of course she is. Who last year called for Bordon Brown to resign, of course she did. She also has a blog called the Stiletto Socialist( whos studying in Paris ) - I added that last bit. I am sure this young girl will influence thousands of pensioners, working class people and the rest to vote Labour. She ll really relate to Labours Core Vote.

Today we had the Tory launch which lasted 21 days - or felt like it.
No wonder people are bored with Politics jesus it went on and on and on.
But strangely they said not very much.
Cameron quoted JFK! Yes I was embarrassed too.
Cameron is no JKF.

The questions after were telling.
Sky New Adam Boulton asked a particularly complex question which had Cameron sweating like a pig - all about fox hunting! Not about VAT, or the deficit, or public service cuts, or Income Tax, or Crime or Chris Graying - no he opted for fox hunting for his one and only question.

Now call me cynical but News International which owns Sky, also owns The Sun, News of the World, Times all of which have come out in support of Tories.
How the fuck therefore can Sky News be impartial!
Adam Boulton really looked a complete tit asking that question - and this man is to chair a TV debate. FFS.

My partner

I ve just noticed I have nt mentioned my partner.
We ve been together for 19 years. A long time in anyones book.
He has his faults as do we all.
But on the whole he is a generous, kind, loving man who I love deeply.

He has in the last 5 years had to go through watching his partner become very ill and recover more than once.
No one should have to deal with that.
I feel guilty because of it.
Feel like he does nt deserve to have had that and like I dont deserve him.

Black Cloud

I mentioned the other day I was feeling depressed following going into remission.
Apparently its quite a common thing, your body/mind gets you through the treatment etc but then when its over you feel like you ve dropped off a cliff.

At the moment is like a huge black cloud in a windless sky.
Nothing seems to budge it.
I find it hard to get up and when I do I find it harder again to eat, or take any notice in anything.
The worst time is around 8/9pm thats when I feel physically sick from it.
My heart pounds, chest hurts and I feel sick to the stomach.
My mind whirls with thoughts of death and I often wonder what is the point and wish it would all end.
Am I suicidal - slightly - but not enough to do it.
Do I wish I d go to sleep and not wake up - often.
Do I wish I did nt feel like this - yes.
Why would nt I?

Can Cameron be anymore of a wanker.

Cameron today was with Sir Michael Caine - a person with a personal wealth of £45,000,000.
A person who fled the Country in the 1970s because he did nt want to pay UK tax and became a tax exile and contributed nothing to this Countries tax system, the NHS, schools, etc etc for years.
A person who says he will do the same again and again not contribute anything to this Country.
A person who stated in 2009 that people who were unemployed were " layabouts" - so if you ve lost your job because of the recession your a layabout according to Sir Michael.
Nice friends Mr Cameron.

So the wanker bit.

Well Cameron managed to squeeze in 2 Caine film quotes into his speech.
Thats why he s a wanker.

And the great British Media - oh how they laughed.

Update

Hello thought I d let you see whats been happening on the cancer front and the parents/family front.
Well yesterday went for a follow up appointment at the Northern Centre for Cancer Care.
Everything going as planned, blood tests etc all point to continued remission.
Its now 13 weeks remission.
Thats a quarter of the way through, as I have been told if it does nt return within 52 weeks it is extremely unlikely to return.

Its pretty hard to function though, although I feel ok etc, its a bit like waiting for a fatal accident that you know might come but then again might not. - if that makes sense.
The slightest headache, tiredness in fact any ill feeling and its OMG its back.
So as well as being depressed Im very snappy and short tempered.

My parents have not been in touch since the argument nearly 2 weeks ago.
Which is nice to think after 3 bouts of cancer and finishing chemo etc people who are your family can be so cruel.
I find it rather sick to be honest.
Maybe I just did nt really know my parents.
Or did nt realise they were that bad.

I find it unforgivable to be honest.

And we're off.

Well the Election campaign has started.
The Tories have the backing of businesses who opposed the minimum wage - remember they predicted job losses then too.
And one of his team has come out of the closet as homophobic - section 28, lack of equality laws, no gays in the military, not introducing civil partnership's etc etc. Just a few of the things the Tories did/did not do in the years they were in power.
And Cameron has said he ll slash public spending on hospitals, schools and the Police and give tax breaks to the very very wealthy.

So nice to see the Tories have indeed changed - they changed back to the right wing, nasty party.

Gene Hunt

I looked at the new Labour Party peoples poster and my heart sank.
Gene Hunt - an unorthodox, anti hero, who fights crime and they choose that to demonise Cameron!
I knew it was a mistake in 2 seconds, why didnt anyone high up?

Im buying the Guardian today - I want a Posh Boy t shirt